Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Old Wives Tales

I am sitting here wondering how true tales you hear really are. Especially since my dumb little dog stole my half my twix bar.

I took everything else off the table, walked in the other room for a minute, and when I came back my candy bar was gone.

Dumb little dog!

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Hmph!

Long hot day at work, looked forward to coming home and relaxing in the pool. That is after all WHY we got a pool.

NOPE, I forgot I had teenagers. My back yard is over run with 14 year old girls. So much for floating and relaxing.

I think I am going to have to put some kind of restrictions in place so I can enjoy the back yard once in a while.

Hmph Teenagers.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

'Sup

Felicia is home from school. Devin is doing much better (most days). And Mikayla is growing up and is turning from a tween to a young lady faster than I care for.

MD and I are diving head first into business ownership. Funny how new ventures make a person question everything. I guess I should clarify that he has really been doing home remodeling for over 15 years. It is just that now it is more full time than part time. It is inevitable that he is going to have to give up the "pay check" job he has to pay attention to our company. He has so much work that he is working 40 hours a week in both and I don't know how long he can keep that up. The scary part is that he has been with his regular job for 31 years. He is comfortable and secure with this company and leaving it kind of takes away our safety net.

I have been working on building our website, managing our books and bank account, and basically doing everything except the physical work. Oh and all that and still work a 40 hour plus week job of my own, keep up with the kids, and run our own house. Makes a person tired just thinking about it all.

Felicia has decided (for now) that Hotel Hospitality / Event Promotions is the field she would like to be in. She has her bachelors and is now checking into graduate programs to assist her in getting the position she wants. I can not give her any advice as this is a field I know absolutely nothing about. My husband's coworkers have all (those who work with the hotels and sporting venues) offered to introduce her to their contacts. Which is so very kind of them. Felicia is also looking at Chicago and New York City. I told her that I am sure it is a very competitive market and to do her homework first. So for now she is interning at the Butterfly House here in town to start gaining experience. Of course this internship does not pay, so she is having to get a part time job to pay her bills. Baby steps I keep reminding her.

Devin is getting to go back to his regular high school next year. his last day at the state program school is June 15th. He has been getting and maintaining good grades and continues to get positive reviews from his teachers and case workers at this school. Upside, from what I am hearing most of the boys that he ran with and got in trouble with are no longer attending the high school. They are either at the alternative high school, being home studied, or just dropped out. I am hoping with the majority of them gone Devin will be able to keep on his studies and behavior in check.

I am just looking forward to a quiet lazy summer, think it will happen?

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Her Bravery Amazes Me

Felicia broke off her engagement and her relationship of 5 years. I am SOOOO proud of her.

It took quite a bit of bravery to do it. That is all I can elaborate on just now. But I will say MD and I are very happy she did it now versus realizing it after she was married.

Friday, May 07, 2010

Where did the time Go

My eldest is graduating college tomorrow. It seems just like yesterday that she graduated from high school.

MD and I are very proud of her though. She completed all her studies in just a short 3 years and from what I understand Truman is not an easy University. Many kids that started dropped out and went to other Universities to finish. But just the thought of watching her walk across that stage tomorrow ..... just makes me feel OLD.

Devin will be a junior (still amazed he made it this far) and Mikayla will be a freshman. My babies are growing up so fast .... I can hardly keep up with them.

Saturday, May 01, 2010

Tequila

I lost a close friend yesterday. She has been with me for 18 years, been with me through good and bad.

My cat, Tequila.

She was a great cat, she never jumped on the counters, climbed up curtains, scratched furniture. She has dealt with the parade of other animals with great patience and flair. But she did make it clear WHO ruled the roost....and that would be her.

She had been getting sick quit a lot for the last couple of month. I kept thinking she was eating the dog food and that was what was upsetting her stomach. Then this past Sunday after shopping with Mikayla we came home to poop fest in my living room. The dogs were in their kennel so obviously it was not them. Tequila was walking around like she was going to go poo again. I put her in the laundry room and only let her out when I was home. She never got better. So I finally made an appointment with the vet.


The doctor wanted to run blood tests, so I agreed. She came back with the news that Tequila's kidneys were failing and not cleaning the toxins out of her system as they should be and she was dehydrated.

I asked, of course, what there was to do about it. They said that we could not revers the damage already done to her kidneys but they could get it to stop. I would have to leave her overnight to get IV fluids to rehydrate her. Then I would have to start giving her medication that would help her kidneys. And that she would have to take this medication the rest of her life. I said, oh okay, so this will help her live what another 2 years or better? I was told no. If I was lucky I would be able to keep her another 6 months to be a year.

I asked about the next option, she said that I could take her home and not give her the medicine (by the way the first option was a very expensive option) but they would like to send her home with pain medication. They said that she was walking the was she was because she was in pain. And the diarrhea was a result of the kidney failure messing with her intestines. I asked how long would she live with this option? I was told two weeks.

My heart ached knowing she was in pain. I had no idea that she was. She just cuddled with me on the couch and never cried. But to watch her walk this past week we knew there was something wrong.

As I sat there petting her head the vet said that there was a third option. I knew instantly what was coming. I just couldn't say the word. She went on to tell me that putting her to sleep was another option. She said no one would think ill of me for taking this option. She is an old cat, and has lived a very healthy full life.

I thought I prepared myself for this. Even told myself that if it came to that I would stay with her petting her head (she loved her head petted). But all I could do was stare at the vet. I felt my eyes stinging and my vision blurring. I had to look away from the doctor and just kept petting Tequila. Not sure if it was for her or for me.

The doctor told me she would give me some "alone" time with her. I just looked at the doctor I couldn't speak, but she did and her voice cracked as she said she would get me tissue. I almost felt as sorry for her as I did for myself.

When she came back I looked at her as she waited for me to give her an answer. I still could not say the words. I just told her that I was choosing option 3. I couldn't speak again after that, I would barley see through the tears in my eyes. I was trying desperately to not fall apart till it was done. She asked if I wanted to be there with her. I totally lost it at this point. I could talk, couldn't see, and could barely breath. I just shook my head no.

They had me sign a paper and then they took my baby girl. She is now no longer in pain.

When I got home the kids were home already. Mikayla asked my why I was home early. I just said I had a vet appointment. When she realized what happened she asked no more questions, just gave me time and space. I then went upstairs and Devin saw me. He asked where the cat was, I just looked at him and instantly started crying. I walked into my bathroom and sat down. He of course followed me asking what happened and again all I could do was shake my head and held my breath.

He did something then that totally shocked me........ he bent over and hugged me. Said it was wrong she was gone and that he was sorry. Just the gentleness of his tone made me go into a crying fit. I tried to stand and leave but he just help me and would not let go until my fit was done. Hours later Mikayla came to me and hugged me. Again I am taken aback at my kids gentleness and caring when I needed it most.

I will miss my cat, she was a great cat. I am sure wherever she is she is chasing birds and eating grass.